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Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
4:49 pm	i want to keep it going. but idk. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 1st, 2006
4:33 pm	closing all my windows when the crowd parted for the paramedics, we already knew it wasn't necessary. the street was painted a purple-red with that boy's blood. on impact, his body had folded on itself: he looked like he was praying to the mailbox. the air was turning the blood on the sidewalk rust brown, but in his hair it stayed a dark red. it seemed to get redder with every flash of the newspaperman's camera. i took the train back to new jersey where my girlfriend and i were going to a new year's eve party. "i'm having the worst day, what a way to end the new year," she shouted in my ear as the faces flashed by in the strobe light and the floorboards shook with music. "i lost my purse and someone spilled red wine all over me." the sight of the wine in the dark made my mouth water and every pulse of the strobe was the eye of the photographer's camera. "at least i've got you," she winked. i bit down on my lip and the afternoon flooded into my blood like an IV drip: the crowd's blank faces; reporters searching for the parents; the steam drifting from the young boy's broken mouth; the pair of sneakers tangled in the power lines hanging like a forgotten mistletoe. "hey, where are you?" she pleaded. but i was right there. the blood was soaking into my untied shoelace as we watched the ambulence pull up. i was right there: the calm voices of the paramedics made the temperature drop twenty degrees. i was right there: they zipped up the black bag and i couldn't breathe. "you better not be in another one of your moods. not tonight." i tried to listen, but i couldn't resist the pull of the breathing open window. i saw myself running to it and lunging straight through it. i felt like i was suffocating in a zipped-up black bag. "i'm not going to do it. i'm not going to deal with you ignoring me this year. that's my resolution! good-bye." i had to lock myself in the bathroom to stop myself from jumping out the window. in the mirror, my dirty blond hair was tinged red. i tried closing my eyes but when i looked in the mirror my hair was saturated, a thick crimson. the new years cheers sounded like screams through the door and i swore that i'd never let myself care about anything else ever again. the next moring the paper said that a boy had fallen out of an unlocked window in his paren't apartment in new york. i dyed my hair the darkest black i could find. a black so dark it could cover the deepest blood red and suffocate the brightest halo. -geoff (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 30th, 2005
3:06 pm	i've been feeling really good lately. christmas was swell. monday was one of my sisters birthday. bj's was good. tuesday i was over at lexi's house for almost 7 hours. it was a really sweet night. we are officially bf/gf. so i'm happy. we watched soo many movies. cuddled. it was sweet. wednessday it was jennafur's birthday. she had a gettogether at bj's with a few friends. before heading over there i stopped by lexi's parent's house for a bit. then picked up kim.. then sergio.. then sterling. then headed down to bj's. a ton of kids were there.. then after we decide to get a few kids to go to porn pit. it was me. sergio. serling. kim. jennafur. long. randy. alvin. steph. jenn. and danielle. randy and alvin got scared and left with a few kids.. and then it was just me sergio sterling jennafur and long. but we didn't wanna do it by ourselves. so we wen't back to look for them.. but they had left. that was pretty much it though. it was fun. yesterday i stopped by lexi's house again before heading down to sterling's house where he and sergio and alvin were kicking it. we were there for awhile. it was fun. that's pretty much itt. i've been happy. merry chirstmas kids. :) Current Music: blonde redhead. (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
9:49 pm	soo.. saturday was winter formal. it was fun.. i don't feel like talking about it much.. so here are the picsss... ( winter formal ) (18 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
7:21 pm	soo pretty much.. well.. i never write anymore.. and i'm not too sure why. but everything is good. lets just leave it at that. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
3:49 pm	hold nothing back i've been to lazy to write everything on thiss.. and basically.. i still am.. so i won't. everything's good though. :) this weather has me in a wierd mood. Current Mood: ? Current Music: copeland. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
10:57 pm	i don't know what to think... or what to feel. or what i should be feeling. Current Mood: confused (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 1st, 2005
1:34 pm	we're so far away. ok.. well i pretty much havn't updated in awhile... last night stephanie came over to cut my hair with amanda c. then when my twinkie finished.. we went to go eat at this new place call camille's.. it's in the new thing they built on the corner of main and ontario.. across the street from henry's. yeaa.. it was pretty good.. somewhat different. we stayed there for awhile.. just talking and stuff.. it was funn.. we laughed a lot. then i called up little vanessa cause i told her we should hang out.. and we decide that we all are gonna rent a movie and then watch it at my casa. then i go pick up vanessa.. then we pick a movie to watch.. and we decide on bowling for coulumbine.. it wasn't too great... just very informative. my twinkie fell asleep. haha. it was cute. besides that nothing much is new.. kinda been thinking a lot lately about the future... and not even that far away from now.. like.. in 1 or 2 years. i think everythings gonna be soo different. i thought a lot about derek and how he's moving to idaho. it's terrible. i hope we can keep in touch. and pauls moving to arizona. dangg. everyones gonna be going to college. i'm guessing most of my friends are gonna leave and i'm gonna loose them. i hope i don't though. i don't even know what i'm gonna do yet.. like.. what school.. where and if i'm gonna move out. i was thinking about my friends and who i will still know 2 at least 2 years from now. it makes me sad. after thinking about it.. i figured that most likely i'm gonna be living at home.. and maybe going to cal state fullerton or cal poly pomona.. and that the kids i will keep in touch with are gonna be either those that will go to the same school. or those who are going to rcc and also living at home. and also all the now juniors that will be seniors in a year... since they'll all still live in the area. it all is kinda scary.hopefully everything turns out for the better. that's all i have to say. bye. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: mae. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
9:15 pm	the world at large. umm.. i don't have much to say... weekend went well.. it was my madres bday.. and we went to a restaurant on saturday.. there were mariachis.. and they were really good.. i really like the music. i think its really cleaver and tight. very well put together. schools going good. hanging out with kids after school.. going to get food.. i had breakfast at dennys today with alli, jessica, mary, and simon. it was pretty tight. i wanna do that more often.. breakfast with friends before school. ohh yea.. paul quit tell them we remember yesterday... he said that he was moving away from hxc music.. and he thought he would be holding us back if he stayed. we saw it comming. we're still gonna be great friends. we're already looking hard for a replacement. possible kids are randy and robert.. not robert douglas.. someone else. we're having one last show with paul and it'll be at showcase october 9th. at our practice this saturday.. we're gonna have randy robert santana and maybe tara come to check us out.. and possibly join the band.. and for santana.. practice for the showcase show cause he's helping us out with bass that day. thats all.. bye. Current Mood: excited Current Music: copeland. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
2:27 pm	pink love. i prommised not to write a novel this time... the last day of summer went pretty well. i called up and talked to a few kids and we decided to go eat dinner at dennys and then see what to do.. not many kids... me derek courtney sergio ryan and robert. it was tasty.. then we wanted to go someplace scarry so we drive likeee.. this one street off temescal and like.. it just keeps going along the freeway and its dark.. we wanted to get off and walk around.. but all the places said like.. no tresspassing.. or private property. so we just kept driving looking for a place. i got in a good conversation with robert. we always do that. it's really nice to have someone to talk about deep things like i do with robert. i love that kid. the first day of school was alright.. i had first luch which was lame. cause of photo class.. but turns out like... most of the kids are juniors and seniors so she said that she was gonna do something to change that. and now i have 2nd.. so it's good. my schedule was screwed up.. i had physics on there and i already took it last year.. and i didnt get early dismissal. but thats all taken care of now. so its good. theres this big drama about crappp going on right noww. anyways.. the story is... josh from utg said some crap on tell them we remembers myspace.. so of course.. i wasn't gonna let him just talk without doing anything.. so i said something backk. and i guess dustin.. new jack dustin got mad.. so he said something on ours.. and of course i said something back on his and it went back and fourth. and this other kid got involved for dustin.. and robert got involved.. gotta love robert. and i guess dustin and josh wanna fight me. and i really don't care at all. i'm not the one that's gonna start it.. if the do something.. then of course i'll retaliate. it just gets me mad at how dumb these kids aree. they're too dumb to say anything to our face... so we'll see. i just can't let them talk about me and my friends like that. and our music too. whateverr. woah.. this was kinda longg.. i didn't talk that much though.. oh well. see ya. Current Mood: blank Current Music: blonde redhead (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
3:36 pm	mmm symmetry. so lets see. umm friday i went to cajalco and met up w/ tara, kim, and taras bro and sis. and i saw a ton of kids there. it was really fun. tara and kim are really awesome. dereks backk! he got here on sat. and i went to go visit him that night. we just kicked it for awhile and looked at pictures from the trip. and old pics of them.. which was pretty funny. umm sundayy... i went to daniellas birthday gettogether.. a bunch of kids were there. we played outburst and it was fun. i really like how close daniella and christina and kirra and annica and marrissa aree.. they've seriously known eachother since elementary.. so they're like super closee.. it just seems so like... idk how to say it. like.. they can just to whatever. and just like.. the way they interact is really amusing cause they're soo incredibly comfortable with eachother. its like they're idk. we practiced for the first time in about 3 weeks yesterday.. it was alright. i liked it.. tara came to check us out cause we all want some synth or keyboards in the band and she plays and she said she'd come check it out. pretty much we just bored her outa her mind.. we were trying to show her our songs and whatnot.. but im sure i would be bored if i was her too.. idk if she really wants to do it. it would be cool if she joined.. but it's alright if she doesn't want to. im learning how to play the harmonica.. the one ryan gave me for my bday in january. thats pretty much it. i like someone. bye. Current Mood: blank Current Music: bright eyes (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
3:27 pm	alrightt.. soo.. last tuesday i really wanted to do something.. so i called up robert. and was like.. lets do something.. hes like.. alright.. so we end up going to in n out and looking for kids to do something.. we end up going to pick up vanessa after that.. then we head over to the drive in to watch charlie againn.. although ive already seen it.. it was alright. that was like.. all of us' first time to the drive in in ages.. so it was kinda confussing. hah. it was fun though. that was it. wed... i went to the oc fair to go see julio iglessias!! woot woot! (enrique iglessias father) hahah.. it was pretty cool.. i went w/ my mom and two sisters.. we won the tickets.. so thats why i went.. they didnt have anyone else that could.. but i enjoyed it pretty good. it was fun. i knew some of the songs. my wife was supposed to go.. but she couldnt get a ride. so i was kinda bummed but it happens. k.. thursdayyy... it was my first day of summer school.. and i was kinda scared i wouldnt know anyone.. but turns out like the whole blessed are the dead crew is going there too.. so im hanging out w/ them. class is absolutely terrible. sooo borringg.. and sooo much workk.. and its just bad. i like the idea of going to a different school and getting to meet new ppl and like.. just looking at their school i guess. but like i said.. class = death. :( todayyy.. i met kim and tara from centennial at school.. they had been my myspace friends since forever but we never talked.. or ever met eachother in real life. so i hung out w/ them at break. and after school i talked w/ tara and got hers and kims numbers and i guess we all might hang out tonight or something. i asked robert to come along and i think hes down.. so it should be different tonight.. not the people we usually hang out w/. so itll be really fun hopfully. i gave tara a ride home too cause she was waiting for one. class is still death thoughh.. soo much workk! im excited about like hanging out w/ them thoughh.. i like having new friends. its different. k.. im done rambling. thank you for listening. Current Mood: excited Current Music: blonde redhead. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
10:48 pm	ok.. so i didnt do anything today.. and i kinda wanted to go outt.. but didnt. i just stayed home and sat aroundd. i changed my acoustic guitar strings though. since i knew i wouldnt find anyone to go out with..i kinda told myself some things that i wanted to get done before the night was over... 1. change strings. 2. write. 3. come up w/ some chords for what i wrote. 4. read. well turns out after finishing number 1 up there.. i wasnt in the mood to write. so i didnt. and i didnt do numbers 3 and 4 up there as well. once again.. i wasnt in the mood. so instead of doing something productive.. im sitting here on the computer which is pretty boring i must sayy.. and wasting time. anywayyysss... dereks gone for over two weeks.. and thats maddness. im gonna miss that character soo muchh.. i already doo. that also means no band practicee. andd no shows.. which really sucks. but whateves. i think im gonna work on a tell them we remember side project w/ paul while dereks gonee. thats kinda why i had numbers 1 2 and 3 up there. and its not gonna be anything like tell them we remember. its gonna be a lot more experimental. only pauls screaming is the same. hopefully we'll have at least two songs done by the time derek comes back. and hopefully we can use someones recording program once we're done to get the songs out so kids can hear them and see their reaction to them. i hope i get to see my wife tommorow and wed. i think ill go read noww. thats all.. goodnight. Current Mood: weird Current Music: blonde redhead. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
7:17 pm	so i dont feel like telling everyone everything i did. so i wontt. cause its boring anyways. ill just say im feeling really happy because of a very special gal whose name is christina. <3 Current Mood: happy Current Music: le tigre (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
3:48 pm	pee pee . Current Mood: blank Current Music: blood brothers (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 9th, 2005
11:09 pm	ummm... im feeling weird todayy. i feel like i have sooo many things to do.. or that i would like to do.. yet i spent so much time doing things that really dont matter. i dont know what i want. back from vegas.. it was alright.. lame thoughh.. tuesday.. derek sergio and i went to starbucks and met up w/ rachel vanessa and bianca and dustin. and we saw scotty and jesse there. and aslo aylla. and we headed to the park after. nothing special. i went to six flags on thursday. it was fun. yesterday... lex and sergio came to vist me at my housee.. then we headed to dereks house.. and kicked it there for awhile w/ sterling and dustin. then we headed to cajalco and we went to the game store. it was alright. then we went to the movies. everyone wanted to see fantastic 4 but lex wanted to watch dark water.. so i told her id watch it w/ her. and so we did and everone else watched fantastic 4. turns out our movie was pretty lamee.. but it was fun. lex is way nice. i wish she lived in corona so we could hang out more often.. shes a great friend. and that was it. today.. i didnt do anything.. talked about the band w/ sergio paul and derek.. and there was some arguing.. which wasnt good.. but i think we needed it to be on the same page.. nothing bad at all.. its all cleared up. thats all.. bye. Current Mood: confused Current Music: none. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
10:06 pm	and i felt infinate. okk.. umm.. the band practiced all week.. and w/ robert.. because he played offered to play friday night w/ us. which helped us out a lot. ive been reading the perks of being a wallflower that vanessa let me borrow since sunday. i really like itt a lottt... it makes me reaallyy happy.. i know its a sad book.. but just some of the parts.. where charlie feels "infinate" it makes me really happy. it reminds me of somedays ive had before. i think it could possobly end up being my favorite book. i was reading this one part.. i dont even remember what part it was which is pretty funny.. and anywayss.. my eyes got watteryy. haha.. and i have never cried before for a movie or book.. but it made me happy.. it was a good part of the book.. and i always listen to music in the background very loww. and it was the good life.. and it just all felt perfect.. my eyes got watery and i sat and thought for a couple of seconds.. then continued reading.. i think the part was when he was talking about the stars maybe. ill look into what it was.. anyways.. its an amazing book so far.. im almost donee w/ it.. on thursday night.. robert. vanessa. sergio. dustin and i went to the movies to see war of the worlds which i thought was pretty good. and i had a gianormous iceee.. :) i didnt enjoy myself that night as much as i did the other night.. im thinking its because of the argument i had w/ my mother before i left. i had fun though. friday.. we played at lyrics in san bernardino.. it was funnn. i enjoyed it very much. not a lot of kids showed up.. which was alright.. cause i had fun preforming. we had to leave right after we finished playing thoughh.. which sucked a lott.. i wanted to watch shenendoahh.. i like emm.. and they seem like good kids. i wanted to support.. we had to go though. after that.. derek and i unloaded. then we sat around waiting to see what we were gonna do cause it was only 10 on a friday.. so then i had called christina earlier that day and she said daniella had a bonfire at her house.. so derek and i decide to go. we get there.. and everones leaving to go light some fireworks at the park. so we hop in a car w/ them and leave. i really like christina and all her friends.. cause like.. they just make me happy. the way they act.. it makes me feel happy.. like.. its hard to explain. they just get allong really well.. and all are spontanious like that.. and it just makes me happy. we hung out at starbucks after.. it was kinda akward since derek and i only really knew christina, daniella, and kira.. but i still had fun listening to them all talk. then we went home about 12 oclock. that was good. im leaving for las vegas tommorow morning.. im not really looking foward to it.. but it should be alright. thats all.. bye. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
9:50 pm	abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.. alright.. so saturday night i left relay for life early since my mom wanted me home for th night.. i went to dinseyland on sunday though.. that went swell.. monday.. was mewithoutyou... it was amazing.. sergio, dustin, vanessa and went.. and after getting our tickets.. we had dinner at ihop.. which was really good it was a lot.. i got full.. i had a strawberry lemonade.. which i really enjoyed.. then we went to the show.. it was amazing. i think thats the hottest ive ever felt chain before.. after the show.. i was drenched in sweat.. completely.. literally.. im not kidding.. i think that made the experience even better thoughh. we stoped by 7-11 though just before heading home... after droping everyone off.. i kinda drove really slowly home.. i didnt want the night to end just yett.. i got off at cajalco after dropping vanessa off.. and i drove through the parking lot and i passed by the theatre and stuff. it was completely empty.. it must have been close to twelve.. not that late.. but it wass a week night.. i was listening to azure ray.. and everything seemed so peacefully.. it felt really nice just driving around in an empty parking lot that was once full. i had a real sense of freedom. it seems really stupid.. but i really liked it. i took the long way home after that. i never went faster than 35 miles per hour.. i decided to drive to dereks house.. cause i thought he would be awake since its summer and all. on my way there i passed by this part of the road where u can see the whole city.. with the city lights and all.. it looked soo beautiful. it made me happy. i started wondering if there was anyone else in the city that was doing the same thing i was doing.. like.. driving with no destination or planss or such as i was. and i wondered if i knew the person.. or if i have even seen this person. i got to dereks house and all the lights were off.. so i just went home. i really liked driving around like that.. being spontanious and stuff.. it made me happy. tuesday.. we had band practice.. and santana camee... which really was beyond amazing.. hes reallyyy good and he made the music sound really good too. it made me happy.. but im not getting my hopes up.. he might not play for us. im keeping my fingers crossed. yesterday.. i hung out w/ sergio and robert.. that was the first time ive really hung out w/ robert after he left the band.. but we are still very good friends. i love that kid.. hes a great person. we went off the mall but it was closed.. so then we went off cajalcoo.. and to the movies.. and we decided to watch batman begins.. so we get our tickets and head over to target.. because i want an icee and robert wants to get candy. it turns out that the place that sells icees is closed so robert gets his candy and we head to barns and nobel and hang out there for awhile. we saw zack and chase there. then we goo to the theatres.. we saw sean shane there and luke and trevor and cindel too.. it was cool. the movie was pretty good. i had a lot of funn.. it was one of the funnest nights ive had in awhile. today we had band practice.. w/out paul and santana.. because we couldnt get a hold of him. thats all. i wrote a lot.. sorry. bye. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
10:29 pm	You Kill Bugs Good, Man today was the firstt day of summerr.. and it went pretty well.. we had band practice today.. it went pretty well.. courtney showed up and we all hung outt... then sergio, ryan, derek, and i went down to the school football feild to help vanessa and amanda set up for relay for life this weekend.. im excited.. i should be going to bed soon because of that.. o well. then we got back to dereks house and practiced some more.. it was fun.. that was about itt.. its ryans birthday today.. i feel bad cause i didnt go to his bonfire.. but i couldnt.. ill visit him at work this week and give him his present. i hate it how people think they're soo cool when they smoke and get drunk.. its really annoying... and not cool at all.. i hate it when they brag like its something to be proud of when its really the opposite. the kids growing up need to see that there are kids that dont do stupid stuff.. support edge!! XXX thats all. goodnight.. im gonna sleep! Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: pinback (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
4:13 pm	so baisically we have one more day of school leftt! and then we're seniorss! yayuhh.. minimum day today.. i did nothing.. im feeling sickk. i hope i get better for relay for life.. which is already this weekend. i might go to ryans bonfire thats like.. this friday at huntingtonn.. i dont know if ill be allowed to thoughh.. we'll see. hopefully i can go to mewithoutyou mondayy.. im excited!! thats itt... practice with the band allll summer.. and hopefully get really good. Current Mood: sick Current Music: the shins (Comment on this)